Future

 Dear Will --

 

So much up and down since I came back.  I lost my tablet the same day I noticed I'd been mischarged $2280 by a New York Hotel.  Fortunately, I had an email that proved I had cancelled and sicced my Chase Bank on them and had my money back in a couple of days. The tablet, I fear, is gone. And last Tuesday instead of working so much on my triggers I just had a grief tsunami in Sarah's office. And then yesteerday at the 8 o'clock St. Francis service there was a lovely canticle for our Prayers of the People section that had this:

Prayers of the People based on “The Canticle of the Sun” by The Rev. Rick Morley

 

The Canticle of the Sun is a prayer/ hymn attributed to St. Francis of Assisi.  Theologically, it identifies the elements of creation as sisters and brothers to humanity, and calls upon the  forces of nature to praise God with us, and us with them.

 

Intercessor:  

Let us name with thanksgiving those animals for whom we care.

Me:  Sequel, Winston, Poppy 

Let us name with thanksgiving those animals who have been

our companions over the years and are no longer with us. 

Me:  Max, Rafferty, June Juhmpa, Birdy, Sasha

And let us remember the unnamed, unknown animals with whom we

have shared in the circle of life.

And I thought of how you were far more interested in crossing the Rainbow Bridge to meet June Juhmpa and Birdy than Jesus, and I told Pastor Elizabeth that after the service. I miss Birdy and sometimes call Sequel by her name. I thought of how I watched the spirit leave Rafferty's body as I held her while trying to give her water from a dropper.  I thought about how I touched your hard, cold dead face before you went into the ground. And right now remembering your last die I hope my death is more peaceful than yours. But you are peaceful now.

I know now I'm moving but I can't decide between buying a house in Eugene and returning to work with VST. If the latter, rather than selling the house I'd pack up my stuff and rent it out

I need to think of my "family," at this point - two dogs and a cat.  I COULD abandon the cat or try and rehome her because she's not all that much of a companion (she's no Rafferty) but my conscious won't let me so if I go to Canada I'd have to find a pretty run down rental that allowed both dogs and cats. Whereas buying a house I don't need to think about permissions.

So I'm praying on this. Whatever I choose to do, I'm now looking around at everything as temporary. Of course, considering that every second of the day we're closer to death, everything is.