I missed another appointment yesterday. I am crying every day. I am angry all the time when I'm not high. Another friend told me last week that it took energy to be my friend. I am lonely but I don't want to be a bother so it's just easier to not contact anyone.
Thank God (really) for Covid last week so I didn't have to explain why I only wanted to be with Winston, Poppy, and Will on Thanksgiving.
I'm doing my best not to read "it costs me to be your friend" as "Kake is a bad person."
How am I going to get through the next month? Answer: get up. cry. walk dog. do stuff. cry. eat. pet cat. go to bed. repeat.
Is this the rest of my life?
That's Kookee Kookee
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